“Having Strong Hope: An Issue Close to My Heart”

When I was a little kid in elementary school, I was bullied because my teeth had a few gaps and they were not straight.

I had surgery on my teeth to get them fixed and on my ears because I could not hear well like the other kids. So I learnt to lip read.

I also had trouble reading, so my teachers and parents thought it was best for me to be in certain classes to get a better understanding, which helped me, especially with the tests I had to take.

My older brother was always very protective when I was being bullied, however this changed years later and brought a separation between us, the results of which led to depression, anxiety, and fear. 

God knew what I was going through. I did not want to be on this earth anymore because of how emotionally and mentally drained I felt, due to certain things that happened in my life because of my older sibling.

I forgave those who did me wrong because if Jesus asked Our Heavenly Father to forgive the people who nailed Him on the cross, so could I. God delivered me from almost taking my own life due to sadness, fear, depression and anxiety.

Around my early middle school years, there were times when my family and I barely had food in our refrigerator.  We would eat peanut butter and jelly sandwiches and sometimes, just bread.

I would spend my time watching food programmes and wonder what it would be like to eat the same food they were eating. 

We used to live from hotel to hotel, whilst my mother went through a lot with her health for years battling heart disease, Lupus and Arthritis. During a series of surgeries, she died twice and came back to life.

My mother told me that she was talking to God in heaven where there was no pain and only peace.

However, God told my mom that there was work that she needed to do on earth, and this is when she came back to life.

The nurse at the time came in saying that she had passed away, but a few minutes later, they told me and my family that she came back to life. After that, I cherished and enjoyed every moment with my mother.  

I had always been close to my mom, a mommy's girl. We did so many great things together: we told funny stories and jokes.

She taught me never to give up even when times got tough, and to trust the Lord with all my heart. "Trust in the Lord with all thine heart, and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways, acknowledge Him, and He shall direct thy paths. Be wise in thine own eyes, fear the Lord, and depart from evil" (Proverbs 3:5-6) -NKJV. I held onto those memories.

On October 9th 2021, my mother passed away due to having Covid-19 with pneumonia. It was a heartbreaking time for my family and I.

I knew that there was still Hope. Hope that God has good plans for me. Hope that I am here today for a reason. Hope that my family and I will continue to be healed from all the pain and sadness that we are going through. 

The Lord gives me strength, peace, and confidence. He is my Hope and firm foundation. He will never let me down. God will never abandon nor forsake us, for He is with us to give HIS peace and comfort. 

Going through these things made me realize how it is so important to put it all in God’s hands. God will take care of our burdens if we give it to Him. I know that going through obstacles in life will not be easy, but trusting in the Lord and knowing with my whole heart that you I will get through it, assures me that you can too!

It’s not over until God says it’s over. God never said it would be easy, but you are a winner in the end.

This is my story.

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